11 May “Mooommmmmmy!” – A Mother’s Day Reflection
It is now 10pm, I got up at 5am, and we just finished putting Chase to bed.
Proof I am committed to the transformation process and to being a yes? When I was asked to write this Mother’s Day blog, I heard the little voice in my head whispering “No!” – but I said Yes instead.
The little voice whispered, “you can’t write a Mother’s Day blog, you are not a good enough Mom to share your experience.”
That is what the voice wanted me to believe. That I am not good enough. That I don’t do enough. That I have not been home in the evenings enough. That I spend too much time working at the studio, and that I don’t make enough time for family. That when I do a yoga class, a CrossFit class, or a bike ride I am being selfish and putting myself first.
I breathe, and use the tools I have to fizzle the little voice’s power. I Commit to Making Myself Good.
I think about all the things I do as a mom. How hard I work. How awesome of a mom I am. How I am a role model. The many sacrifices I make. I know I am not perfect. But I do know I am committed. I know I listen to understand. I know a healthy body leads to a healthy mind. I know better.
I do not listen to the stupid voice. To the negative thoughts that go through my head. I know I must be vigilant against the power of that voice. That it will never go away, but I control how much energy I give to it. I stay positive. I know the story is a lie- a BIG f-ing lie.
Then I go home, and ride bikes with my family.
I am an awesome Mom, and so are You!